“She is so different; different than any other girls I have come across with; different than any other girls I have been in relationships with so far. And I have started to love this difference so much.”
He took the first drag of his cigarette as he started to confess his story with me. I, other hand was so excited to hear the same. I couldn’t wait anymore. “Keep going”, was all I could say to him.
“She is being so special to me. I can spend hours and hours talking with her. I am starting to enjoy the companionship of her. You know what? She is very talkative and I love to be a good listener. That last weekend, we spend the whole day in a café, talking, sharing each other’s story. I felt very wonderful. The time was just so congenial for me.”
“So, what is the relationship status right now? Are you falling for her?” I asked innocently as I stared at the burning ashes of the cigarette between his fingers. That was just like his heart burning fiercely in love again.
“Relationship status? I don’t know, it might be complicated. But, yeah! This I can confirm you that I have started to deeply fall for her already. I am so addicted to her. I mean, her company is so addictive. I just can’t get enough being with her. She has been my drug indeed. She is such a charm to me. What shall I say to you? She is just so special and something else for me. The interesting part is almost all of our choices match which doesn’t happen usually.”
His cigarette was burning already on the halfway down the stick like his heart was into her love.
“She has made some great effects to you and your life, eh?” I tried to be a bit funny to him.
“Effects on me? How to explain, what she has done to me and my life. You know this, I have been through very difficult time in my life right now. Nothing is going right. I am literally pissed off with so much of things. And in between all of these, she has come in my life. Because of her, I have learnt to smile and be happy amidst of all the difficulties and hurdles. Someone had said, “When you are going through a very bad time in your life, find the thing that makes you happy in such a condition.” For me, she has been the one. I forget all the bad things I am going through my life currently when she is with me. I just smile and my heart just gets filled with joy. I see everything else other than us are just frozen and we are the only one alive. Damn! She has taught me hell lot of things already.”
“You have already gone too deep my friend. But, what if she rejects you?” I threw a genuine question towards him. Before saying anything, he took a long breathe and continued.
“I seriously don’t know what I will do; how I will react. I can’t even think about that. It’s been a long time since I have been with someone so deeply. The last time I broke, it was such a tough time for me. I thought I won’t be able to love someone again. I thought my heart won’t get restored with love again.”
“Then, how come this time again?”
“I don’t know that either. I am in complete dilemma; how she entered in my life and how quickly she has won my heart being an acquaintance and a good friend is like a mystery to me. I mean, I was completely done with this relationSHIT thing. But, the way she has conquered my heart, I cannot deny that it’s not something special. I know it’s not fake; I know it’s happening for real. I know I am in a very crucial stage of my life and I am making a biggest decision of my life. I guess I am gonna give myself and my life one last chance; one last chance to fall in love again. I have no idea about myself if she will reject me in the end but, I am giving my everything this time; I just don’t want to ruin this time. For the one last time in my life, I am letting my heart decide and lead the way of my life.”
He then crushed the cigarette butt in the ashtray. I could see the seriousness in his eyes; I could feel the genuine feelings that he has. He was continuously pausing and taking deep breathes while he was narrating his story. I knew it, his heart is in deep trouble; in deep confusion. But, whatever it is, I just wished that he won’t fail on this very last chance he has given to himself. May his love won’t be crushed like that cigarette butt which he just did. I hope it will last for eternity.