Okay, this one is another article written for the same “Wordism – The power of Words” competition organised by Youth Legends (YL) Nepal. Earlier I had posted an article on Hey Rain which was nominated as runner-up article. And now this one has been declared as the winning article for the month of Bhadra, 2073.
The link for my article is appended here below:
Or I’ll just make easier to you posting the whole article here.
Heartbreak and Excruciating Pain
Stitching the parts of his heart that she had torn apart, covering up all the ditches she had created, painting the corners of his achromatic heart and rejuvenating himself all over again; he is struggling so hard to get over that heartbreak and pain.
Yes! That heartbreak and excruciating pain which she left behind along with the footsteps for him while stealing away all the happiness he assembled before in her presence. And he’s afraid that the pain she gifted to him is going to last forever; that emotional pain, that heartbreak unlike other physical injury, which just fades away after few days of medication.
He has been hurt before; he has been through the pain as well but this one; this one is completely an overwhelming distress. He is totally out of control. His every sense organ, his moves and feelings are out of his regulation. It’s like he doesn’t own them anymore. His whole body, from the roof of the head to the tip of the toe aches more than anything else. He feels like they are shaking so vibrantly, shaking because of the shivering cold and at the same time burning with roasting hot. He is falling from a skyscraper, drowning into a deep ocean, lost into the woods and swept away by the blowing wind simultaneously. Oh Lord! It hurts him so much.
He never thought he would be like this; he would behave this way. He thinks life has been so unfair to him. He laments to God or whatever exist that has this magical power to rule this universe. He expresses his grievances for slaying him alive for nothing. He asks, “Why me? Why this uncontrollable pain? What had I done? Do I really deserve it or is it the only thing worthy for me?” He is unable to understand why all this happened so abruptly taking him from pleasuring heaven to awful hell within a blink of time? This is so not fair, he thinks.
And again he enters to the world where he already has lost his control and regulation.
His mind is short-circuited. Every veins and arteries are jammed. They cannot pump blood properly and it seems like the blood is looking for a way to ooze out from the body. The same body which is trying to bear an unbearable pain. He is suffocating. His lungs have become useless. Rather, his body is so vacant or a worthless pack of muscles and skeleton. He used to consider his hands as flapping wings to fly high up in the sky of his dreams but now, now he can barely feel anything beyond his shoulders.
That heartbreak and devastating pain she left for him indeed has been the most horrible thing so far in his life. It has turned him almost a living corpse. Nonetheless, he hasn’t knelt down in front of these awful situations. Rather, he vows to move on with a mended but strong heart. Whatever he is facing at the present time, however he is living; it has strengthened him more. He’s taking it positively. That heartbreak and excruciating pain has been a good lesson for him making him realise how cruel this world can be, how inhumane people can turn into and how awful can life become.
He knew it, how life works.
No matter how many times and however you fall, you get up again and walk in your journey of life. If you can you run; you run, if not you walk or crawl but you never stop. You shouldn’t. You must not. Life is for everyone. Even if someone’s a richest person or poorest, beautiful or ugly, smart or dull, tall or short, fat or slim, everyone has got the same. Everyone struggles to make his or her one better. Everyone interfaces ups and downs, crest and trough. Life actually is not for somebody who fails or goes through heartbreak and gives up on everything. But, it’s for those who manage to stand upright despite the worst thing that happens to them and takes their breath away. Life would be so mundane if it wouldn’t include failures along with successes, pain along with happiness, love along with hatred and heartbreak along with attachment. But, nobody looses his or her hope. They believe themselves and move on and that’s how they live. They survive or breath even if they are doing it barely.
And that’s exactly what he is doing despite the unbearable pain and uncontrollable conditions. Yes! He is struggling so hard to get over that heartbreak and pain believing himself more than anything else.