“Where are we going?” she shouted from the backseat. Her words did an audacious job to reach his ears along with the cacophony generated by his bike.
She, the one who was making that day extravagant, who was the reason behind his smile and with whom he always felt that pleasure of living the present and dreaming about the future.
“That’s a surprise. Somewhere you have never gone. I’m sure you’ll admire it.” His words somehow made the way towards her ear.
She was the most ecstatic one as he was with her and they were having a ride towards somewhere, an amusing hill station.
All the way, along the pitched, gravelled and muddy road, their joy and happiness was all over in the air. Bountiful they were, overflowing actually. She was cherishing the moment and he was having the best time of his life indeed.
She would talk with him from behind, laugh with him and sometimes tickle, making him to giggle. But then, he would yell at her because of the fear of getting into any kind of unwanted happenings. Still, she was enjoying it. An overwhelming moment it was.
Whenever there was straight and smooth road, the cool wind blowing was making contact with his face and chest. No matter how much he hate that during a ride but that day it was something different. Despite the hatred he was loving it. Maybe because she was behind him shipping all the warmth he needed.
She was screaming in excitation stretching her hands wide apart, letting her hairs fly and allowing her lovely cheeks to be felt by the blast of wind. Oh! The wind must admit that they were so lucky to have her across the way. And in most of the time, she was holding him so tight around his belly like she was putting her lisle to his life. Never letting him go away, never giving him chance to escape from her life. At that moment, a gentle smile decorated his face.
Suddenly, a car blew its horn so loud behind them.
He woke up. He got his eyes opened.
It was his stupid alarm, which just played an antagonist role of being a car’s horn in his ravishing dream. Oh! His dream, much beautifully started and horribly ended.
He just put off the alarm spitting out some coarse words to it. He had nothing but a frozen body and some merciful feelings for himself. For having such a dream, a fantasy that can never happen. He got it; her memories were literally tormenting him.
It was almost a month since he had been out of contact with her. It hurts him, saddens him. It breaks his heart; vandalize his body like an atom bomb landed in there.
It’s actually fine with the daily schedule. He wakes up, go to his office, comes back, have meal and sleeps. He’s being busy with his personal life that he’s not getting the actual time to let himself submerge in her memories. To remember her name, her gorgeous face, her wonderful smile and her pleasant voice. He’s not getting enough time to remind his mind about the flash backs of his past life where he used to have days filled with awesomeness talking with her. The tension, stress or havoc in his mind used to fade away in just a second whenever she used to talk with him. Those silly talks and laughs used to let him count his day as ‘a day well spent’.
But then, amid the busy day, whenever he gets a minute of free time from his hectic schedule, his mind reminds him of a face which has been glued in his heart since long time. It’s Her face, her smile and her talks. She just walks into his mind. Neither knocks nor asks for any permission. She walks all around in there, inspects everything within him: his condition, his appearance and all. She then starts talking with her continuously no matter if he’s replying back or not. She just takes him to her virtual world. Oh! Her smile and her hypnotic voice, he just can’t exempt himself out of her cage.
Then, suddenly after manipulating his heart and his condition for few minutes, she just leaves his mind making him all alone and vacant again.
He gets alert then, gets busy with his schedule left wherever.
Everyday, before going to sleep he goes through his phone at least a time. Though he can’t text her or call her, he opens those applications through which he used to make contact with her. But, nothing he can do. He just checks her profile, her picture, her status and all. Sometimes he goes through the past conversations as well that produces a lovely smile on his face. His heart says, “ oh! Those days, they were fantastic.”
Then, a few of the questions run across his mind, which he couldn’t answer. Why does it happen again and again? Why is she running there in his mind every time? Why is she hunting him down so much? She is threatening him indeed. Later, whatever queries arise in his mind, he just smiles. He smiles in happiness by being hunted by the lovely person although in imagination.
Despite the dreams and virtual world he has created, he can feel her there, he can have her there or make her his own beloved in there. He finds her the only perfect one who can fill up the gaps between his fingers with better scale. The only perfect one who can recover his lost smile on his face, who can light up the fused bulbs of his life and brighten up his soul again.
Still, he knows that she can’t be there with him again in his life. He sincerely reckons this bitter truth of his life at the moment. She can’t be the one who can talk to him every time, to cheer him up whenever he feels down and to flush down all his pain. She can’t be the one beside him whenever he’s struggling somewhere and need someone so badly. Because she’s gone already. Gone from his life, gone with the wind.
And maybe he’ll never gain the contact with her again. He strongly fears that he won’t be able to talk to her again like before. If something will happen between them once again, then it will completely be inadvertent. He just wants her to come across his way some day, encounter those beautiful eyes again, the astounding gift of god in front of him all over again. And even though she won’t talk too much with him, he just wants to say one last time, “ whenever I think of you, I smile.”